today i turned my ap studio art portfolio over to my teacher and from there it is headed to the ap people, whoever they are, who will determine my future.
that's not actually true. the next four years of my future are to some extent decided, as i have been accepted to both colleges i am going to attend, one of which relates to this blog as it is a prestigious art school: SAIC or School of the Art Institute of Chicago. yes i am bragging, just a little bit. so whatever score i get on my portfolio, it doesn't matter much. it doesn't even really matter to my self-esteem, because what the ap board has to say about my art matters very little compared to what i think about it and what those i love and respect think about it.
but the ap portfolio and the process i went through to make it has to some extent shaped my life already. i went into the studio art class at my highschool because i liked art, thought i wasn't too bad at it, and had already taken or attempted most of the other art classes they offered. sometime in the two years i've been in the class, i decided art was the only thing i could ever see myself doing. so i suppose it was that class, the friends i made in it, and the dedicated art teachers who led us that made me decide to take more art at the community college and eventually apply to art schools. it's strange to think how much my attitude towards art has changed since my first day of studio art, which i still remember vividly, and how my life has changed along with it.
it took me these entire two years to create a 2D portfolio that i am proud of, and although most who know me know i am rarely proud of my art outside of rare, temporary bursts of cockiness, i am proud of it.